old lady night gown $3.49
halloween makeup kit $0.99
long scary wig $5.99
having people jumped off their chairs seeing me, priceless.
there are some things money can't buy, for everything else, there's..

I put on my make up, tried on my halloween costume, walked to the kitchen to throw out some papers, then I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, I almost flipped! I freaked myself out. I forgot it was me.

**{at Ji and Allen's place in North Hollywood, sometimes on Saturday nite}**
Ji : can I ask you personal questions?
Me : sure
Ji : are you ready to date?
Me : wuh? are you asking me out?
Ji : HAHAHAHAHA.. no. seriously.
Me : sure i wanna date again
Ji : you're not afraid of getting married again, are you?
Me : Hell no! I love boys too much to ever give up on them!!
Ji : hahahaha.. well I'm glad!

No, you're not color-blind ;) I did change the skin to black, I'm just tired of pink.

I went to Ji and Allen's place last night. Again. To try out their new full bar. For some reason, I was pretty pooped. Maybe because I knew I'd be the fifth wheel again; Ji and Allen, Mell and Matt, and Me. Ha! Of course Ji tried to get Ernest to come and join, but he's in Palm Springs to see his mom. He IM'ed me and said sorry though. That was the 3rd time he declined Ji's invites. He prolly just doesn't like the driving part. Whatever. He's not coming so what, so I thought.

The food was good: we had italian meatballs, hot wings from KFC, and this HUGE 28inch pizza! Dang, I never seen pizza that big before, it covered the whole table. So anyways, we then watched "Amityville Horror" which made me feeling nothing but jealous. What do you expect? Ji and Allen on the other side of the sofa cuddling. Mel and Matt sat next to me holding eachother's hands. I thought, Oh great. We're watching a horror movie, and all I have is a pillow. Nice. Everytime there's a spooky moment, they be like hugging each other, and I had no one. Nada. Yah, sucks to be me.

Sometimes, I do feel like I need a boyfriend. Ya know, just as a company for stuff like this. But other times, I feel that I can do everything all by myself. I guess, I'm like, in between of wanting to have someone but not ready for any commitment. Does that make sense? or am I just confused?

I guess my break-up with Dart does scare me in a way. I'm kinda scared to start any relationship: to put my love, effort and energy into a relationship that may or may not work. To be honest, subconsciously I compared guys to Dart. He's not the most beautiful or wonderful man in the world. But he was to me. Though our relationship didn't work the way I wanted, I used to think it would last forever. Aside from religion differences, we were perfect for each other. Blah. It amazes me that I can now talk about Dart without feeling as much pain. Looking back, it used to bring tears everytime. This is great. This means I moved on. Yaay.

[Pause: got two phone calls from Ida and Susy. We're having lunch together. Cools.]

Btw, I've been meaning to post this in my blog. Yes, it's my ticket. I have a habit of posting my stuff in my blog just so one day I get to look back and say, wow, that was when I flew to Indo for the fifth time. Back to flying with China Airlines. Ha! Not the best airline I know, but good enough to fly me back home. People do say bad things about this airline, but whatever. I never really had bad experiences with it. Knocks on wood.

Yaay. It feels good knowing that I be flying home soon. Seeing my family always keeps me grounded. Seriously. Sometimes I do feel I'm different just because I live in US, so far away from home where everything is not Indonesia-like. I know its me that have changed, not them. I now think, act, and behave differently compared to when I was living there. Some in good ways, some bad. I try to minimize the bad ones, of course. And going home, seeing them, being with them, talking to them always help. Like I said, keep me grounded. I miss them for that.

[Pause: Take a shower and get ready for lunch]

What else do I want to talk about? Oh yea, my apartment. I start hating this place. Why? 1. The Manager sucks, 2. Power goes out every now and then -almost causing death to my fish due to bubbles and filter were out, 3. The window screen fell off and landed on the roof of the karaoke place next door. I now can't open the window thinking if I drop anything it will fly out off the window. I even thought, hmm, what if someone pushes me out the window. I would've died. And of course the manager didn't care. what a crook. And 4. I found a scorpion coming out of the cable hole in my floor the other night. I freaked out! I sprayed it with Windex. No, I don't have bugs spray. Windex is all I have. It ran away somewhere. Hope I killed it. And that's it. The scorpion was the final straw. I'm moving out.

I found a place that I really liked. It'll cost me $150 more than what I currently pay for a month here. A one-bedroom with one car parking space. It's bigger and I get to park Mashimaro (or Tao Ming Tse?) in a covered spot. I hate to see him getting all the rain, the bird's shit and LA mud or dust. But then, can I really afford it? This is something that I need to seriously think about.

Ok. I better get my butt off this chair and go see Susy and Ida for lunch. Nasi Warteg, I'm coming!

[four and half hour later]

I'm back.
Nasi Warteg was delish, as usual. Susy and I went to Westside Pavillion mall afterwards. Of course, right when I did not plan nor have budget to shop, every store has their SALE sign. Buy 1 Get 1 Free. Buy 1 get 2nd item 50% Off. Geesh. That's one thing I learn from American people. They're consumptive. Now in this case, I become more americanized. I got me two new pairs of pants from Rampage. *grinning*

Speaking of shopping. Yesterday, I went shopping for this guy right here.

At first, I just wanted to get him a jacket. I ended up getting 2 pairs of pants and a jacket! I also saw this LeapFrog learning baby toy, oh boy, I'm so getting it for him. But it's HUGE! I don't know if it even fits in my luggage. I didn't buy it yet. Maybe later.

Oh, Halloween! It's coming up soon and I already know what I'm dressing up as this year. No, I am NOT telling it now. It'll be a surprise. I'll be a character from a horror movie. No fang though. Maybe a little blood or veins in my face will do very well. I don't have the costume yet. I plan to make it myself as usual. It should be easy this time around, but I think I will need a wig. Naaah, maybe not. My hair will be good enough. I'll post my pic here next week. No, I don't celebrate Halloween. I just love the dressing up part. This will be my 5th year. And no Dart *sniff sniff* Pfffftt. Whatever, its cool. I still got party invites without him. Two actually. But I prolly will go to one only. Plus, I will have to dress up to work too. There's no way I would dress up three times. Too much work.

Anyways, thats it. I'm done writing for the day. Time to watch TV now. Ciao!

Komen setelah liat poto diatas adalah tercantum dibawah ini (bahasa gue dong, aneh!)
NEGATIVE (-) alias KONTRA
Lupie: halahhh
Lupie: isih thoooo
Trias: hahaha.. engga.. temen
Trias: soale klo pesta, kabeh wis podo duwe pasangan.. kita bedua doang yang cengo'
Trias: akhire yo nempel wae
Lupie: halahhhhh
Trias: mesra yo? padahal pasangan palsu! hahahaha
Lupie: nggilani tauuuu
Trias: hahahahahaha

POSITIVE (+) alias PRO (plus genit)
Trias: photo kemaren gue potong mukanya dia trus gue blur-in
Trias: eh malah tambah seksi kesannya
Weni: keren keren!!
Weni: itu si sipit, ga pake matanya, cuma bibirnya aja, jadi keliatan sexy euyyyyyyyyy
Trias: MAKANYA
Trias: yang gue bilang sexy tuh dia, bukan gue lageee.
Weni: bibirnya ga kuat booooooooo
Trias: HAHAHAHA I KNOW!
Weni: jadi liat nya tuh dari dagu, ke atas... pelaaaannnn.. pelaaannn....
Weni: sambil berdoa dalem ati(PLEASEEE NOT SIPIT.... PLEASEEEE NOT SIPIT)
Trias: HAHAHAHA ga taunya.. JRENG! cipit
Weni: HAUHAUUAUA
Trias: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Weni: penonton kecewa

any other comments??

October 18th 2005::Cabana Club, Hollywood
It's open bar.. so ya'll prolly know what have and should not have happened. Sorry, no details this time around. Too many beep moments. The pictures should say it all. You can tell I had too much fun. hehehehe..

He didn't make it.. he died approximately at 1:20pm. I don't really know what caused his body reacting differently. The other two cats were fine, their surgery went well. Allen and Ji went to the vet immediately to get an explanation. He was fine last night when Ji and Allen picked him up at my place. He's still as active as before. Arrrgghhh! I'm so upset.. :(

So long prince Oliver.. it was a lovely 3 days I had for taking care of you. Thanks for giving me a busy 3 nights with your affectionate self. You're a good kitty. No, you're great.



update:
He's been cremated over the weekend. Click for more pictures of Oliver

Hang in there my prince.. don't give up on us yet.
Please don't..

[he's now unconscious. supposely he's having the surgery but his body did not react well with the anestesia. the vet had to put him in oxygen because he could not breath and he's changing color]

gue sedih banget :(

Ipod Video is out next week. Crazy how fast technology moves. I just got mine this year and I thought I was the coolest gal working out with an Ipod in my belt. But nooooooo.. everyone has it now. And right after I bought mine, Ipod Photo was out. Then recently, it was Ipod Nano. Geesh.. but guess what?

Imma wait til it can take pictures and record videos before I buy another one. It'd be nicer if I can use it to fly too! hahahaha..

I'm baby-sitting Oliver from Monday til Thursday for Ji Sun. Why? Because on Sunday, Ji Sun found him trying to 'bang' Mrs. Chippy. She freaked out! It's just sick, Mrs. Chippy is his own sister man! I had this theory that maybe Oliver doesn't know that Mrs Chippy and Princess Fiona are his sisters. And I told Ji and Allen to tell all three cats that they're brother and sisters. They said they did, but I guess they don't listen.

Anyways, he's one energetic cat indeed. He had fun trying to talk to my fish yesterday.. kept knocking on my tank. Amazingly, they're okay with that, at first they're jumpy, but then were kinda used to see Oliver's face on the other side of the tank. My fish prolly think "Ehhh.. he's messing with us, just ignore him"



I also learned that he sees stuff that I do not see. He went to the bathroom (shower area) and from that point he got ready and ran -in a full speed- to whatever he saw under my bed, and he started fighting it. He did slip around a few times though, cuz of my hardwood floor (Ji's place is carpetted). And before I left for work this morning, he literally ignored me because he was too busy playing with "this invisible thing". One day is all he needs to have an imaginary friend here.

Oh, and he knew where his litter box was. Ji and I showed him the litter box once, and first time he had to go, he just went there and did it. Good boy, huh?

::Gue ama Lupi di yahoo tadi malem::
Trias: im baby-sitting oliver, senen ampe kemis
Lupie: halah.. sopo kui oliver? kucinge sopo?
Trias: Jisun's
Lupie: u should be careful, ati ati tokso lho mbak
Trias: HAHAHAHA kucing disini kan divaksin ini itu lup..
Trias: two days before i got him, he's being examined.
Lupie: oh yaaa???
Trias: ini oliver tu ya, ngikutin akuuuu wae. trus sangat energetik. mlayu rono rene.. kepleset sana sini. lah lantaiku kan kayu. sementara di tempatnya Ji Sun kan carpet
Lupie: hehehehehe mesakke
Lupie: kebiasa melu wong sugih kon melu kaum duafa
Trias: HAHAHAHA iyo lup.. manut banget.. kan doi ngeliatin akuariumku
Trias: aku bilang "No, Oliver! Come here" ya uwis.. nurut. nyedaki aku.
Lupie: walahh... ngerti bahasa inggris
Lupie: kalah akuuu
Trias: WAKAKAKAK!

Mellany: okay dude
Mellany: i just got my period, and i don't have any tampons or pads
Mellany: so i asked frances, adn she gave me pad
Mellany: it is the BIGGEST pad i've ever seen in my whole life
Trias: HUAHAHAHAHA
Mellany: i feel like i'm wearing a diaper
Trias: *rolling on floor laughing ala yahoo*
Trias: YOU'RE TOO MUCH
Trias: i cant hold my laugh *masi rolling rolling ketawa*
Mellany: seriously! though, u should ask her to have one just so u can see it
Mellany: its the lenght of my underware from one side to the other
Trias: HAHAHAHAHA
Trias: i have one btw.. a thin one mind ya
Mellany: i should've asked u
Mellany: next time i know
Trias: live and learn ma friend *nyengir*

I met him again last night. Before I took off, I gave him a hug, and we hugged for a loooooooong time. He whispered "Did you have fun? Are you gonna be okay? You want me to take you home?" (awwwwww.. yah, he's sweet) I said no to his offer though. Naw, dun wanna start any more drama in my life. ;)

When I got home, we then texted each other til 12am, but I had to turn off my cell cuz it got boring. And I learned that the feeling I had for him has vanished. He's still cute, I still care, but the feeling was just not there. (wow that rhymes!)

Anyways, g'luck buddy. You just lost me. I be your friend alright, but nothing else. Take care..

saya mengaku bahwa:
1. tadi pagi ga mandi, abis telad (baca: males)
2. saya ga puasa (ga niyat, perut sakit mpe mo muntah, trus batalin deh)
3. berasa seneng/sedih campur aduk karena ntar malem 'mungkin' ketemuan, "mungkin" karena dia belon pasti dateng ama engga'nya. rese lu!
4. saya harus/musti mandi sebelon ke chaya ntar malem. gila aja klo bau gini mo ngumpul ma temen2..
5. yah.. saya bau.

inti dari pengakuan hari ini adalah "Janganlah tidak mandi di pagi hari, karena akan mengganggu pergaulan anda"

**Is it just me or my bahasa is really getting weird and worse?**

obrolan gue ama adek gue, in bahasa-javanese-english:

Trias: http://www.fun.from.hell.pl/2003-02-18/peeping.swf
Lupie: lemme check
Trias: berhubung kowe ga puasa
Trias: nek puasa, jangan diliat. hehehe
::few mins later::
Lupie: *ketawa guling guling ala yahoo im*
Lupie: kacau banget mbaakkk
Trias: i know.. hahahaha
Lupie: sing njelehi sing no 2 seko kanan
Trias: sing ngelibet neng sikil?
Trias: *ketawa ngakak*
Lupie: bukannnn
Lupie: malah sing ngleboke tangan nang sak jaket ternyata malah lagi megang
Lupie: paraahhhhh
Trias: iyooo hahahahaha
Lupie: *ketawa guling guling lagi*
Trias: wis ngono, melet meneh! MIT AMIT!
Lupie: hahahahahah! ra nggenah
Lupie: yo wis ki aku arep menghadap pak menteri
Trias: wesss
Lupie: wish me luck
Trias: mentri sopo? pak alwi?
Lupie: yoiiii
Trias: salam kompak yo! dari trias di amerika.
Lupie: hasyahhhh
Trias: okies.. g'luck!
Lupie: sipp *dadah ala yahoo*
Trias: *dadah juga*

So far so good. The fasting wasn't hard in the morning, but by 4pm, I started getting the hunger headache (ya know what i mean, rite?). I enjoyed it though.

I had dinner with Joel last night at Ikea store in Burbank. We were good tho' -in terms of shopping-. Why? Because we didn't buy anything! hahahaha.. The plan was just to look around. He's moving to a new apartment soon, and I am in the process of looking for a new place. So we wanted to get an idea of what our new places look like. Me excited! Ikea got some cheapo ass furnitures. I'm soooo going back there when I'm ready to buy stuff.

I saw "the" drawer I wanted at the As-Is section, I looove the color. Too bad I couldn't buy it now. I'd totally do a make over on my new place. Not now tho'. I have Indo trip to think about FIRST.

aite, gotta do my morning pray now. sahur is waaay much better with internet up! time flies! peace!

Selamat datang, wahai bulan kemenangan!

"Telah datang kepadamu Bulan Ramadan, bulan yang diberkahi. Bulan, yang Allah telah berkenan mewajibkan puasa atasmu. Pada bulan ini, pintu-pintu surga dibuka, pintu-pintu neraka ditutup, dan kedurhakaan setan-setan dibelenggu. Pada bulan ini dijumpai lailatulqadr, satu malam yang lebih utama dari seribu bulan. Barangsiapa melalaikannya, maka akan dilalaikan" (HR. Imam Ahmad, al-Nasâi, dan al-Bayhaqî, dari Abî Hurayrah).



I am so excited yet nervous.

Excited because it's this time of year that I can fully committed to my religion, be discipline, faithfully follow all the rules this month with holy mind, body, and spirit. Nervous because I know I have been bad lately, that I am worried I won't do as good as I was.

I know I'll be fine. Just fine. If I can pass last year's Ramadan -with all the pain I had to endure- I should be able to pass this up well. Or BETTER.

For all of you, MINAL AIDIN WAL FAIDZIN. I apologize for anything that I've said or done that may have offended you in anyways. Let's start this month with pure spirit.

Okies, I'm off to KJRI to do my First Taraweh! Wassalam!

Ernest: when does ramadan start
Trias: tomorrow
Ernest: so you can't eat for a month? just vodka?
Trias: hahahaha..
Trias: from 5:30am to 6:30pm, i should not: eat, drink water/alcohol, smoke, be pissed, cuss out people, cry, etc
Ernest: you can't cry?
Trias: cuz its like.. you have to control your emotion.
Ernest: what if you watch titanic?
Trias: HAHAHAHA..
Trias: you cried when you watch titanic?
Ernest: no i didnt
Trias: hahahaha.. ok
Ernest: what if i purposely try to get you mad over ramadan
Trias: i would appreciate it if you dont.
Trias: but, me, i have to be able to control myself to NOT get mad. regardless.
Ernest: what about making racist jokes
Ernest: what about laughing at racist jokes?
Trias: hahahaha.. i dunno.
Ernest: can you laugh?
Ernest: laugh until milk comes out of your nose?
Trias: ewww
Trias: do you ever laugh until milk comes out of your nose?
Trias: thats gross.. plus, i dun drink milk.
Ernest: it happened a few times when i was a kid
Trias: HAHAHAHAHA
Trias: thats cute! gross but cute

but yah, i got my ear rims pierced! and that makes it 3 piercings in each ear! i'm always into piercing when i was growing up (as oppose to tattoo which im totally against -no offense to tattoo's fans), but living with my parents, i couldnt really get more than 2 piercings in my ear lobe. i've been wanting to have two more piercings in each rim. now, one down!! :-)



what? am I too old for dis? hell no! heheheh.. there's no such thing as too old to have part of your body pierced. whats next? my nose, fo' sho! hehehe..


The difference between the 3 guys in terms of my ear rims piercings:

Peter
Trias: fyi, i had my ear rims pierced over the weekend.
Peter: i think u should do your tongue and belly button
Trias: no.. no tongue no belly button
Trias: nose is next. but maybe later after my trip
Trias: my mom would kill me if she sees me with nose pierced.
Peter: im just telling u what guys like
Trias: HAHAHAHA.. im not doing it for no guys!
Trias: u pervs
Peter: hehe

Joel
Trias: btw, i had my ear rims pierced
Trias: *proud*
Joel: look at you...busy weekend
Trias: nose is next.
Joel: ha

Ernest
Trias: busy?
Ernest: what ups
Trias: nah.. just wanna tell you, i had my ear rims pierced this weekend.
Ernest: do you have pictures
Trias: of my ears? hahahaha.. ya actually!

kesimpulan: 2 pervs + 1 good guy + 1 crazy girl = good friends.

Yesterday (sunday in indonesia), the family had 'kekahan' for Adrian. Kekahan is a javanese/muslim tradition to celebrate the birth of the baby. Bapak sms'ed me this morning saying that it went well. And just now, my sister sent me bunch of pics, here they are:


yah, he got the smile, alright. Aint he the cutest ever??!


putra mahkota digendong ama eyang kakungnya. you so can tell how proud my mom, dad, mbak evi and mas bagus are. im so jealous! i shoulda been in the picture too! hiks hiks..


Lil Auntie, Adrian, and Eyang Uti. Iiih.. Eyang putri ketauan banget sayangnya.

Kesimpulan: Adrian tukang tidur. Merem mulu bawaannya. Dimandiin, merem. Dibedakin, merem. Auntie-nya juga sempet dipipisin, sambil merem. Wonder where he got the sleepiness from? Eyang Kakungnya lah! Sapa lageee.. hihihi ;))

Hari ini aku kangen banget ama kamu, lalu kucari cara untuk ngilangin rasa kangenku, ku pandangin uang "gopean", disitu kamu duduk kalem banget.

*gue-yang-lagi-kangen-tapi-menolak-untuk-nelpon/chat/negor-duluan*

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call him..? or not?
call him...? or not?
call him....? or not?
yah, thats whats been ticking in my head. annoying. very annoying.