From: Trias
To: Mellany

Mel.. I hope you're feeling better.

Listening to how upset you were got me thinking. I think and I know I have a part of whatever's been happening between all 3 of us. Maybe I talked too much about Ji to you. Which I shouldn't have. I mean, I didn't mean to bash or talk bad about Ji all the time, which I think in a way it bothers you too. For that, I apologize. We're friends. So I shouldn't even have said anything bad about any of us, at all.

And today, when Ji talked to me about you, I shouldn't even have said anything, either to you, or to Ji. I don't know why I felt like I had to explain it to Ji that you were just trying to be nice. Or even to you, when I said Ji didn't mean to say stuff about you to me. I don't know why I did what I did. It had nothing to do with me, and I should've just told her to go to you. But of course, I was not sensitive enough to know that right away. I just thought I could be a help. Which in the end, it still made you upset. I felt really bad. And no, don't tell me not to feel bad. Because I know I partly am the cause of this. I am sorry. I didn't mean to make any mess. I feel really bad, awkward and just don't know if anything I say now would make you feel better.

I understand things have been wierd lately. I am not sure what or maybe I know what it is, but just couldn't explain it. I do think that things are different between the 3 of us. But please don't say that we cannot be friends anymore. I think this is something we can work out. I love you and Ji equally. You two are my bestfriends. I don't want to lose you guys over something that is fixable. I'll try to be a better friend to you and Ji by not talking too much. It's not gonna be easy, but I'll try :-p

Regardless, I hope you and Ji talked about whatever happened today. I really hope we can all work it out. If you want to talk about it, I'm here. If not, I understand.

Love you girlie :)
-t

p.s. I missed you at Mishima today. Ji and Allen treated me to dinner for driving up to Redondo Beach to pick up Allen from Pirate's filming. Naw, I just wanted the free dinner really, hehe. *kidding*

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From: Mellany
To: Trias

Hey Girl,

First of all, you are such a good friend. I know I kind of lost it yesterday, and I want to say a big part of it is probably b/c I've been so stressed out lately, but another part of it is I don't feel as close with the 3 of us as I used to, and that does bother me.

Regarding your email below, I have a few things to say about that.

Firstly, you do not bad mouth Ji to me. You never do, and you don't have to worry about coming and talking to me about a situation when you are frustrated with her. There are going to be times when one of us will just needs someone to talk to, and we should be able to go to the other person. Lately, I've been frustrated with her (because of pregnancy related issues), and I have had to come to you to talk about what has happened b/c I know that you understand my confusion. I think the problem yesterday was, I felt like Ji Sun doesn't come and talk to me about anything anymore, and then I heard she was going to you about something so minor, and I just felt like that was the final straw. But in the future, I never want you to hesitate coming and talking to me about anything. Part of the reason why I love being friends with you so much (besides you're hot) is b/c we can tell each other anything, and never have to worry about the other person's reaction, and I don't want to lose that.

Secondly, about Ji coming and talking to you. Thats really what set me off. (Which I talked to Ji last night, and explained all of this to her.) I felt like I was just trying to be considerate of her feelings, and she turns around to discuss with you, as if there was some alterior motive. I told Ji, if she ever wants to know why I did or said anything, she should come directly to me and ask me, b/c I will always be honest. I think we talked it out, and things feel better.

Also, I know you get caught in the middle... ALOT. And, that is a very awkward place to be when you are trying to maintain friendships with everyone. I can't really say if I would've handled the situation differently, or what should've been done, I think the only real solution was Ji coming and talking to me immediately, which I hope after our talk last night, that will all be resolved.

I guess I've really felt this weird rift b/w us lately (all 3 of us), and its been on my mind for a little while, but something w/ yesterday just set me off, and I couldn't deal anymore. I''m so sorry about my reaction on the phone with you. I was really upset, and I shouldn't have taken it out on you at all, and I hope that doesn't change ANYTHING about our friendship at all. I guess I feel like my job is so stressful at times, that I don't have room for any more stress in my life, and thats why I said, I don't know if I can do this anymore... But, really I need to try harder with Ji Sun (and you) to try to resolve these little issues. And I talked with her on that.

Anyways, this email became really long winded, but I hope I got my point across, and I hope you know how much I value you as a friend. You're not only one of the funest people I've met, but you're a great and loyal friend too, and I REALLY don't want to lose that.

Thanks for being there for me...

Luv,
Mellany

my bestfriend and her boyfriend recently took sailing class. soon as they got their certificate, they rented this approx. 20 feet sailing boat for the day, and invited me and some other friends to enjoy the privilidge of going "sailing". btw people, i don't swim. hell, i freaked out when i put my head in the water the first time. BUT, they're pretty good persuading me to go. it was the night before when we hung out at barneys. after 3 drinks, my drunken ass gotta say yes to the offer.

it started off pretty cool, everything went smoothly, we all had drinks, had a good time. my friend actually went to the front of the boat and did the titanic pose. no, she's not drunk. she's just excited. some were singing "sailing.." or something to that effect. i don't even know what song, but it has 'sailing' in every sentence. maybe. but anyways.



the first hour was great. then.. the wave began. the boat started rocking back and forth, right and left. to those who didn't take dremmamine were forced to take some. i took one 30 mins prior. and then within minutes, one girl, down, puking. her face went pale. one girl had to lift her hair while she's puking. felt bad for her, i went down to the cabin to get the sprite and grapes. bad mistake, cabin was way worse. i felt pukey, i hurried back up. the boat was still rocking. harder than ever. everyone started looking sick, except the captain and one guy who acts and wants to be the captain, oh and his pretty girlfriend. he's annoying yet helpful. the guy who wants to be the captain that is. and then there's this guy who wouldn't stop talking. trying so hard to be funny --while everybody else was quiet, thinking that maybe, just maybe, with being quiet would make the sickness go. at one point, i wanted to tell him to shutthehellup. but, nope. i'd be nice. no reason to be a bitch. not when i can't swim. what if he's mean enough to push me to the water? and the sharks would come around and happily eat me, and save some parts of my body for dinner later.

so instead, i kept myself busy with, none other than, chewing. yea, eating helps. thats what my mom says. motion sickness can be cured by eating. yea, another reason why i'm so not thin. but whatever. so i chew. and chew. and chew. i grabbed everything that edible. well not everything. i got those oh-so-good jalapeno potato chips. which soon became everyone's favorite. except the sick girl, she could barely move. she had the grapes. which apparently helped. btw, as you see, i managed to take some pictures. but the wave so didn't help. and the battery died on me. oh wells. it was too rocky anyways.

then, the guy who wished to be the captain went to the cabin and turned on the radio. power 106 -where hiphop lives. and just like that, the sick girl got up, holding on to the rail, and yup, she started dancing! she managed to shake her ass along with yung joc's "it's going down.. meet me in the mall, its going down.." and people, she's not drunk. now i'm convinced, miracle does happen. and that power 106 really is where hiphop lives. but she didn't last long. soon enough, she's back to her seasick-ness. poor girl.

after 2 hours of quietness (except the sound of my chewing food) in a rocking boat, the captain asked "ready to head back?" everyone nodded (surprisingly) hard. making sure he knew that we were (really) ready. all of a sudden everyone was able to say YES to the captain. yet, with pale face. i wondered one thing, how come all those actors don't look they're miserable in the boat. ya know, in the movies. they all look comfy and enjoying the time. did they take lots of dremmamine? anyways. on the way back, we saw a seal. cute. i actually clapped my hands. ya know, me clapping when me happy thingy. that was the first time i saw a seal while i was on the boat. last time i saw one, it was at the aquarium of the pacific or wait.. was it in the movie? which was cool too, but this one was wild cool. by 5:30pm we're back at the marina's dock. phew. oh, i also saw a strayed cat who's too cute to be a strayed one. and took pics of it.



for someone who doesn't swim, i sure was brave enough to get in the boat, and sail for 3 hours! i pat myself in the back. pat pat pat. good job. first for being out there in the ocean in a rocky boat. second for not getting seasick. well, thanks to dremammine. and the gazillion worth of calories of jalapeno potato chips. and the grapes. all in all, it was fun. painful but fun. definitely worth the pain.
the end.

T: so.. do you miss la yet?
E: yeah
T: do you miss la so much you cry to your sleep?
E: yes
T: that's cute.
T: do you have your phone on already?
E: not yet
T: text me when its back on.
T: so i can drunk dial you.
E: wow.. but sure

i must have been really really good this year that i get to have the best birthday present that even in my wildest dream i would've never thought of getting!! this is SUPER!

Ji: hey just curious
Trias: whadup
Ji: anything going on between you and jon?
Trias: nope
Ji: k
Trias: hehehe.. thanks for asking. but nope.
Ji: ok just checking cuz i didn't ask about you and ernest but i knew
Trias: HAHAHAHA
Trias: ok, i promise i'll let you know if anything ever happens between me and jon
Ji: ok hehehe
Trias: but so far, no. i just thought hes fun. and after lucky strike, weve gotten closer
Ji: i thought not but then i thought maybe cuz you've been wanting him to hangout in mostly everything we do now
Trias: for mel's, that was because i slipped or i think we talked about it at sushi place
Trias: then he asked what i do this weekend
Ji: oh right
Ji: so if something DID develope you wouldn't mind
Ji: cuz you said "so far"
Trias: i mean, he prolly wont come, cuz he be in sd. but he said he be back on sun
Trias: i dunno. i just like hanging out with him.
Trias: i dunno if i like him like that.
Trias: so, thats why i said so far.
Trias: i feel comfortable talking to him just as i am with you guys. and i see that he is too. he talks a lot when we hang out.
Trias: but i doubt that something will develop. we both don't want any relationship.
Trias: to me, i dont want to say never. cuz for instance, with ernest, i never thought i woulda liked him. but i did.
Ji: ah
Trias: just to be honest with you. hehehe
Trias: like that friday night, when he texted me to offer me a ride, i think it was pure of his dorkiness wanting to show me the car.
Trias: may i know why you're curious?
Ji: just wondering
Ji: ;))
Ji: i feel a gossip brewing
Trias: HAHAHAHA!!
Ji: and a future confession
Trias: oh
Trias: my
Trias: god
Ji: later you'll be like
Ji: remember when you were curious about me and jon?
Ji: and i'll be like OMG you snapped!
Trias: HAHAHAHA
Trias: naw.. if .. i said IF, anything ever happens, i'll let you know.
Trias: with ernest, that wasnt something i was proud of. i liked him, but i didnt like liking him. not that much of a like.
Trias: i was in denial for so long. i kept telling myself i didnt really like him. i almost believed it. hehe. but then after that rebecca thingy happened. and i talked to him about it. i got better.
Trias: anyways.
Trias: thanks for checking up on me. hehehe.
Ji: until next time. this is ji sun stetson signing out
Trias: huh?
Ji: hehehe
Trias: was it like a reporter?
Ji: yeah i was an E! news live reporter
Trias: hahahaha
Ji: just being silly
Trias: i feel special
Ji: :))
Trias: but.. lemme ask you tho.. would you mind if something ever happens with me and jon?
Trias: be honest.
Ji: oh when this piece of news get's hot and steamy you'll be bigger than Brad and Angelina
Trias: HAHAHAHA
Ji: not sure
Ji: haven't really thought about that yet
Trias: cuz honestly, i really thought u were worried abt me and jon
Trias: and i wasnt sure if ur jealous of me or of him.
Ji: nah
Ji: not jealous
Trias: no? ur not jealous of him taking me away from you?
Ji: not sure why i'd be jealous
Ji: nah
Trias: :))
Trias: hahahaha
Ji: you should
Trias: i dunno. maybe the baby is.
Ji: cuz now that he's single we've been seeing A LOT of him hehehe
Ji: he's a great guy really
Ji: a great friend
Ji: but when you're with someone you space out your visits
Ji: so i wasn't use to it
Ji: but that's not bad
Ji: but i kinda like spacing
Ji: don't tell him that
Ji: he's always welcome to hangout
Trias: awww.. hahaha of course i wont.
Ji: but you know
Ji: i don't know hehehe trying to explain hehehe
Trias: no no i see what you're saying..
Trias: did he say or do something that annoys you?
Trias: or you're just feeling it a bit too much?
Ji: oh no
Ji: hasn't said anything
Trias: i mean.. i know that the movie makes him hanging out a lot with allen
Trias: so, could it be because of that?
Ji: probably
Trias: like.. the baby wants allens but allen is with jon
Ji: but anyway
Trias: hehehe
Ji: don't want to blow it out of proportion
Ji: cuz it's not bad
Trias: no no.. you can talk to me about it.
Ji: :p
Trias: i mean, of course i wont say a thing
Ji: nothing to really talk about
Trias: im more friend with you than with him. hehehe
Ji: hehehe...i'm glad he has more people to hangout with that's all
Trias: hahahah.. yea, you're a bit tired of him
Ji: but i was just curious about you too cuz i wasn't sure
Trias: i see it now. hahaha
Ji: hehehe...i know we use to joke about it but then i thought maybe it isn't
Trias: and you're gonna throw him at me
Ji: but now i know it still is
Ji: exactly!
Trias: hahahaha
Ji: i was only mad at him that one time
Ji: cuz i invited him and he called you instead
Ji: but then he explained it cuz he thought it was allen who texted him cuz we have similar numbers
Ji: so everything's cool now
Ji: he's more of allen's friend then mine since they've known each other for god knows
Ji: allen even said that jon is like his best friend now now that we've moved down here
Ji: like you and mel are mine
Ji: oh btw, allen just texted me and said that he's having lunch with jon...oh la la
Ji: hehehe
Trias: oh 'ow.. you should be jealous. hes hitting on allen. BIG TIME.
Ji: nah that's ok
Trias: :))
Ji: just show's allen really digs asians
Trias: HAHAHA i guess he does!
Ji: :))
Trias: male or female
Ji: yeah for sure
Ji: hehehe
Trias: hahahaha
Ji: so if you need to know IF and only IF it's ok that you and jon go out...which of course you don't really need to know cuz you can do whatever you want...you should ask allen. i don't care as long as you're happy and he's happy
Ji: but you know allen...he's cool with anything
Ji: hehehe
Ji: but like you said that's not going to happen
Ji: so we don't need to talk about it
Ji: hehehe but only IF
Trias: umm.. i think it should be more of jon asks you if thats okay.
Ji: nah
Trias: hahaha
Ji: it's like asking permission and i hate that
Ji: i'll be like ummm god i feel like your mom or something
Trias: hahahaha
Trias: i guess, stuff like this cant really be talked about BEFORE it happens. ya know.
Ji: yeah of course
Ji: so!
Ji: CHANGE SUBJECT
Trias: ahahaha
Trias: ok

so everything is fine between me and ji..

Ji: hi. i sent you a text this morning. i know you were at work so i'm sure if you read it or not
me: oh you did? hehe.. i didnt hear.
Ji: yeah, so
Ji: basically the past week or so my emotions have been completely out of wack
me: aww sorry to hear that
Ji: and this weekend i was a complete shit because i was very irratable, i was feeling uncomfortable and i had a headache all week
Ji: had nothing to do with my friends
Ji: but i just didn't want to socialize cuz i thought i'd be a shit
Ji: so i thought it would be best if i didn't hangout
me: oh ok
Ji: i didn't want to cancel sushi cuz i thought that would be rude so allen and i agreed i'd go and then after that i was on my own
Ji: when i saw your texts i replied but in my head
Ji: cuz i didn't really want to tell you how i was feeling
Ji: cuz i felt like crap
Ji: so i thought it would be best if i didn't reply cuz i didn't want you to feel awkward
Ji: i thought that on sunday going to church would be great...but the priest was an ass hole so that didn't help
Ji: i am still irritated but no headach and better than this weekend
me: thats good to know.
me: i know that its been hard on you. im sorry to hear that.
me: did you talk to your doctor about it?
Ji: it's normal
Ji: it's in the books
me: oh ok. i mean, i dont know anything about pregnancy
me: and im sure you know better than me on this. i just thought if its getting out of hand, you prolly already told your doc anyways.
me: well, im glad we're cool. i was worried.
Ji: sorry
me: no no its cool.
me: im sorry too.. i just had to ask

wanna hear horror stories of pregnant women? ya know, just a reminder (or precaution) for those who think of getting pregnant. i know for sure I am not about to get "knocked up" hehe. not ever. knocks on wood. seriously. so, here's one:

my dearest friend, ji, who is 4 months pregnant, has become someone I barely knew anymore. we've gotten into our first argument few weeks ago, over something that has nothing to with her. and she took it super personally, and i was the one who got the blame. though we talked about it and agreed to disagree and moved on, i have to be super careful talking to her for fear my story would set her off. but, if i havent been telling her anything, she would think i try to hide something from her. man! and then, mellany and i would have to tiptoe around her if we want to hang out just the two of us, because it would make her jealous. and another thing, she would want to see me once every week, which at first i thought was cute, but later on i found it a bit ridiculous considering i am on the budget and cannot really afford wasting my gas driving up to burbank to have a $8 worth of dinner and drove back to LA, heck the drive takes longer time than the dinner itself. also one time, i had to turn off my cellphone because she would text me 13 times (within 10 minutes!) while i was at work. and when i didnt reply, she thought i didnt love her anymore. im like.. ARE YOU effin' KIDDING ME??!

anyways.. i try my best to understand that it was all the hormones that whack her out. she hasn't been the sweet ji i know lately. it's not easy, but i'll do my best to understand. i keep telling myself, that the baby loves me. thats why the baby wants to see me all the time. :)

and today.. i've been wondering if she's mad at me again. for an obvious reason (i think), because i hung out with jon and allen all day yesterday. *sigh* now i just dont know what to do.

ANYWAYS, on a happier note, My Bestest Friend is having a birthday today!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAYA!!

I know i havent been a good friend to you in years, but please please know that I still am your best friend. You can count on me on everything. Well not everything, cuz I'm not that cool. But, I am here for you, tho' it means 8000 miles away for you. but I am here. hehe. Glad to hear that you're doing well. Life has been tough on you for the past few years, and I wasn't happy to hear all the stories about your life. If I were rich enough, I would kidnap you. Really. I am dead serious. So anyways, I wish you the best. Hope this year life (read: "he") would treat you better and stop taking you for granted. I love you I love you I love you. Happy Birthday. *hugs*

"I'm coming to the movie! Do you want a ride? I got a new car! It's a mustang! hehe"

thump thump thump!! that's all i hear. he initiated. not me. all i did was sent out the email to everyone to see a movie and have a sushi lunch. and that's pretty much my thing anyways, the event planner that is. even joel calls me the J-Lo of the group. ya know, in the Wedding Planner movie. (in case you didn't get the joke). and there he was, texting me. asking me if i want a ride.

i called him rite away. and he picked up after two rings. nice. we talked. we laughed. i'm getting good at this. talking shit on the phone. hehe. it worked like a charm. he'll pick me up tomorrow. i pat myself in the back, good job trias. good job.

wait. what kind of ride? :-p

saw you online soon as I logged in to my yahoo this morning. wth?! hehe. kidding. but dude, seriously though, our so called friendship is weird beyond words. I don't think anyone would joke as weirdly as us.

me: you made it!!
you: they lost one of my bagd
you: bags
me: oh shoot! can you get it back?
you: if they find it
me: whats in the lost bag?
you: my condoms
me: oh, that wont be big problem then. you wont use them anyways.
you: and my tampons
you: yay they just found my bag
me: cools! now you can throw away the condoms! and make a better use of the bag :D

I still have your Dave Chappelle dvd. I have a present for you too. I even have a card attached to it, which is not my thing to give you something with a card. And I haven't seen you in a week and never thought that last week would be the last time I saw you. And I barely talked to you that night. Now I'm worried I won't be able to see you before you leave. But I don't want to beg either. I asked and you didn't respond.. so.. I'll leave it with you.

If I don't get a chance to see you either tonight or tomorrow.. Have a safe trip, ok? *hugs hugs*

update at 11:49pm:
thanks for the late call and thanks for wanting to hang out. but i just had to say no. not at 12 midnight! i have to work tomorrow.. so i guess.. that's it. see you in 2 years! you be safe, ok?

yea.. reality bites! hahaha!
no really.. happy birthday. wish you the very best. i'm sure you had fun at the party. this year i won't be able to give you any present as im broke. hehe.. but i promise i'll bring you something when i go home next year!

love ya!

Lucky Strike Lane, Hollywood, Aug 4
Good times..



right there.. that's the guy I'm "planning" to like. hahaha!

I wish I would of had the nerve to ask you to stay.

You want to know what happiness is? It's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting on the couch and feeling the heat of the person sleeping on your lap. You look down and see his face in his most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. He breathes as though the weight of the world lays on anyone's shoulder but his own. You smile, stroke his hair and rub his face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake him. You lay your head back on the couch and an involuntary grin forms on your own face. He shifts a little, still with his eyes close reaching for your face, softly rubbing it before falling asleep again, and you know it doesn't get any better than this.

From: Trias
To: Cool People
Cc: EH
Date: Jul 31, 2006 10:36 AM
Subject: Let's kick Ernest out of this country!!
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Before we go on with his going away party.. read this.. I have a feeling the guy was Ernest.

A man was on a walking holiday in Ireland. He became thirsty so he decided to ask at a home for something to drink. The lady of the house invited him in and served him a bowl of soup by the fire. There was a wee pig running around the kitchen, running up to the guy and giving him a great deal of attention. The guy commented that he had never seen a pig this friendly. The housewife replied: "Ah, he's not that friendly. That's his bowl you're using."

*ba doom boom -crash!-*

Okkkay.. that wasn't as funny as I thought it would.

Lucky Strike Lanes
6801 Hollywood Blvd Ste 143
Hollywood, CA 90028

Friday Aug 4
7:30pm til you're wasted
(except you Ji, you're not allowed to)

I am assuming you're still reading this long ass email.. so, might as well say it: RSVP PLEASE? I need to reserve the place.

And Ernest, Say hi to Irish People for me!!

Love ya love ya,
tree-house

was broke and hungry and craving for sushi, so, all i did was.. TEXTING!!

me: got me an idea! You should treat me to dinner with the $4600 you won in Vegas!
me: Sushi! Sushi sounds good, aint it? Let's make it sushi night!
me: huh? huh? whaddya think?

within a minute... riiiingggg!! (phone ringing)

him: you hungry or somethin'?
me: yea! but not now.. in 2 hours i be super hungry!
him: hehe.. ok. you want sushi?
me: YES! can we? please?
him: sure..
me: yaay! should i go there or you pick me up?
him: naw, i'll pick you up. 6 o'clock?
me: cools! see you then!

... then, picture me jumping up and down.. running from the bedroom to the living room. happy!

5:45p he showed up, drove back to his place, parked his car in the garage. And we walked to the sushi restaurant nearby. Had an okay sushi dinner (the spicy scallop was great tho') and a bottle of awesome cold sake. After dinner, we walked back to his place, hung out at the patio, he smoked a cigar and i a cigarette. Then watched Jeopardy (what a nerd - i know i know) before he fell asleep on my lap. Awww..

I painted his fingers while he's sleeping. Hehe. Ok, tell me one thing. Do friends do such things? It's weird I know. But.. good times..